barbecue was good.
best hamburger EVER
haha IRRAA, "my roommate is bisexual"
church tonight

last night was SO much fun
barbecue tonight

one midterm down
i still managed to watch new office & grey's anatomy last night/studying... i didn't even pull an all-nighter this time
resident evil 3 & karaoke tonight!
then a busy busy busy weekend... accounting case, "first five" presentation, marketing plan proposal ALL due monday. FAKK

new girl took my pot for her rainbow club

please wash your dishes and pots that's been in the sink for five days. if you're going to use our stuff, please clean it. be helpful and clean something while all of us have worked our asses off trying to keep this hole sanitary. i do not ask for much, that is all

why would she say things like that

she is this all-around friendly/loving type of person, but then says things out of no where that makes you think, "did she just say that to me? that is kind of rude" she is a nice person and generally likeable but when we hang out, it feels like she only does so to use me for what little i have. she is the most difficult person to talk to, mainly because she hides behind her cold exterior. i always give her the benefit of the doubt and ignore the types of things she says, even when she says it blatantly behind my back, but this is the last straw. just because everyone refuses to see anything but the good in her, doesn't mean i have to lie to myself and put up with the really rude and demeaning things that she says about me. if she doesn't like me, then why even pretend for most of the times? i do nothing but nice things for her and have ALWAYS ignored the crap she says to me, always putting me down (because i have this thing where i don't take everything to heart anymore). so what if i find out she's been talking crap, it's still crap and it's still not nice and not fair and hurtful and demeaning and rude and unfriendly and i'm not laughing.

what's worse than a person who openly talks shit is a person who talks shit behind backs

rip amit verma

we'll miss you

um okay, i like this year the best so far. i'm still lonely and have no friends, but if i work hard and graduate, i can just buy them all because i will be a filthy rich business woman. second year was better because i eliminated the drama from the first. this year is going to be better because i am eliminating going out with people. i am not sad, i am fine and fine is something i accept happily.

suddenly, everything makes sense

why i have to work hard for my education, why i have to build a career for myself, why i have to be content. it's all for them. my parents

home just doesn't feel like home anymore when september kicks in. i saw st. joe kids this morning all dressed in their uniforms walking to school and it makes me sad, the thought of a new school year. home is now just the place i sleep at during weekends every month or so until april. i don't feel right being here, as if i'm prolonging the inevitable while everyone's already moved forward. am i the only one not excited for third year? the pressure is on, i can feel it and it blows

when did i become part of the supporting cast in the story of my own life?