September is the season for change.
Look, this is it. I've had enough with being treated differently by those I consider my friends. Is there something about me that makes people want to treat me badly or treat me as if I'm not a human being with feelings?
I haven't seen you in three months. We got along really well and I missed you and of course I wanted to see you. You initiated having lunch with me about three weeks ago. You cancelled last week at the last minute and it was cool, so we went today instead. Firstly, we work in different buildings and I agreed to meet you in your building so it took me ten minutes to walk out of my way to see you. You were late. So we went to the park to have lunch. We had lunch but you were just acting absent the entire time. You asked me a question so I tried talking to you, but you would keep interrupting me while I was talking. It happened twice in five minutes, and it just made me want to get up and walk away from you. If you didn't want to spend time with me, why bother initiating the lunch? I asked you if you were okay and you said you were fine, just tired. That was no excuse to act as if you didn't want to be there.
You began to ask very non-interestedly, as if you didn't even care what the answer was, "So how's that guy you're with? That guy.. what's his name...?"
"Michael?"
"Oh is that his name." It's clear you don't give a shit.
Then your friend spotted us and came to say hello. You face lit up and all of a sudden, you were your normal, jovial self. Apparently you have not seen this friend of yours in a while too. You congratulate him on his engagement, and then he sits down and just takes over the conversation. You two then start to talk about all the music festivals that are happening in the city, and about vacations you're going to take. The whole time I am thinking, so are you going to leave now? Wouldn't the normal social conduct be to say hello, recognize that she's with another friend, and then leave? Nope. He just stays the entire time and then all of a sudden, its 1:05 and we have to get back to work.
I hug her goodbye and walk away thinking, wtf was that.
I've been having a lot of strange interactions with people lately and I am convinced that there's something about me that makes people act this way. Needless to say that this was a horribly unsuccessful lunch (I didn't know you could fail at lunch) and if she could have at least apologized or shown some sort of care for what happened, I wouldn't be as pissed as I am right now.
