masochism (ms-kzm) n.
1. Psychiatry. the condition in which sexual gratification depends on suffering, physical pain, and humiliation.
2. gratification gained from pain, deprivation, degradation, etc., inflicted or imposed on oneself, either as a result of one's own actions or the actions of others, esp. the tendency to seek this form of gratification.
3. the act of turning one's destructive tendencies inward or upon oneself.
4. the tendency to find pleasure in self-denial, submissiveness, etc.
clubbing, it's not my thing. i had really good times but it's just the overall atmosphere that doesn't do it for me. the strobe lights, alcohol, half naked bodies, dirty dancing, very open strangers. everyone in their little sexy bodies rubbing against each other, it's disgusting - no one dances to have fun anymore. every guy you walk right by eyefucks you and it leaves you feeling so insecure so you poison yourself with alcohol just to feel comfortable. why do that to yourself?
what sounds inviting to me is a night at home in my PJs watching television and munching on popcorn. guests welcome if you want, there won't be any alcohol though.
even uninstalling msn messenger, there are various additional methods to waste precious time:
and drawing. it all started with me sketching one character (as i normally do when taking a "break" from studying). as exciting as the quantity theory sounded, i'd rather continue procrastinating so i started drawing a rough sketch of anime-ish people.
then i looked at the clock and realized i needed to start studying so i'll finish it off later. but it kind of pisses me off now that i didn't use blank paper to begin with.
btw, don't ask me who these characters are, i will not tell you so (c), bitches.
