it's weird how i could go days without leaving the house. i could spend hours just zoned out in front of the television watching absolute crap. i could go the day without speaking a word to anyone. i could just stay in my room and not talk to anybody, like i have nothing to say anymore. "what's up, mar?" "oh nothing, just bummed around the house all week." things that normally frustrate me seem so trivial, so i just don't care anymore, even when people think that i do. when my emotions flare up over something, i just don't talk and it seems to go away and i no longer feel. i think problems arise when people talk when they're emotional. whatever they say, they don't mean it. it is just their initial reaction to bouts of sadness, anger, even happiness. that's why i've been able to avoid conflict and not have people's stupidity, unreason and disregard affect me. it really works, it makes me less vulnerable to attacks and i am on a record high with my no-crying streak. it's going to be a good day.