too much to be said

but i can proudly say i crossed a lot of stuff off my "to do" list
and not just the short term goals either

but let's not talk about me.

every year my mom gets a bouquet of flowers from my brothers. she tells them they're pretty but she tells me that they just die so what's the point and what a waste of money. i think she's going to like what i'm getting her. pictures tomorrow.

my youngest brother announced his engagement last night at the first (of three) mother's day dinners. i'm happy but really, it's not affecting me at all. there's no difference, except more nieces and nephews i'm never going to see.

i don't consider my youngest and older brothers family. what kind of sons always puts their birth mother second to their mother-in-law? moreso my oldest brother who basically went running out the door the second he had another family and scoffed at us as if he were ashamed. this is the same brother who, in his speech about families at his wedding, mentioned everyone's name (including his new brother-in-laws) but forgot about me. that was emotionally scarring and publicly humiliating, but this is old news - moving on.

if a dinner is for my mom, how come the two couples were at the other end of the table talking to each other as if me, my mom and dad did not exist. it was like two separate dinners.

i wish lillian would go away so my middle brother can join team "family" instead of team "traitors." he actually is on team family because my other brothers won't let him join since everyone hates lillian (except thanh - she loves everybody).

anyway. now we have to go to another dinner tonight because tony was working last night and an optional third dinner (hopefully just my parents and tony) because quang and billy are celebrating with their mother-in-laws on sunday and it's not fair for my mom to be placed second all the time on actual "mother's day," because she is NUMBER ONE for me no matter what. so respect your mother, love her, be there for her, and don't be a pain in the ass child who is not grateful for shit.